“What I’ve Overcome”


In the war against sin, lives have been both lost and rescued through the power of faith. What we believe determines how we will live, as slaves or as free, alive or dead. There is no child who has run so far that they cannot be restored by the truth, nor is there a warrior so mighty that he cannot be crippled by a single lie. So often Christians are pulled down by the heaviness of guilt and shame, the lie that because we have sinned we are sinners. Hundreds of God’s own children, heirs to His kingdom and freed by the grace of His Son, walk around defeated, their faces downcast, because they believe that they can never be free of sin. And until recently I was one of them.
I had been afraid to speak to anyone about my struggles with pornography and lust because I was ashamed. Because I had done evil things I believed that I was evil, and that if I told anyone else they would be ashamed of me, too. I knew that I had disappointed God, and I tried to change, but I felt so powerless. I was convinced that if I just performed the right tasks in the right way I could overcome the pull of temptation and redeem myself. I felt that that was the only way to avoid becoming a blemish on God’s name, to end my struggle in victory before anyone found out about it. But every time I tried, I failed. And every time I failed I would get back up and try again, a little more discouraged than before.
Until one day God got a hold of my heart. I had been trying to maintain my relationship with Him throughout my disobedience. I read the Bible, albeit inconsistently, and I felt awful for my sin. But I was lukewarm, and I knew it. I hated it. And finally, I had enough. God somehow gave me the courage to talk to my dad about all I had been dealing with, all of my sorrow and guilt, and there at the end of my rope I found what I had been desperate for all along: peace. My father was not ashamed of me. Disappointed? Absolutely. Sorrowful? Of course. But his love didn’t diminish in the least. He wasn’t just willing to help me, he wanted to see me living in freedom and was willing to do anything to get me there. That night I realized that if my human, imperfect dad could love me like that, how much more does my Heavenly Father love me? How much more willing (and able) is He to lead me to a place where I am not only free but completely fulfilled in Him?
But by far the most powerful thing that I realized was that although I have failed, by God’s grace I am not a failure! I am not defeated, I am more than a conqueror! And I am not a slave to sin, I am free to choose the path of life. As the truth sank in, as I embraced it by faith, the most incredible thing began to happen: I felt hope. I knew that I would make it through this, that God had rescued me. Now I’m convinced that no matter what happens, I am God’s son and nothing can ever change that. I have found the strength to defeat sin, not in myself, but in God, in the truth. The very next day, I listened to a song that encouraged me more than I can ever explain, one that perfectly illustrates all I’ve been so clumsily trying to convey. It’s become my battle cry, and I pray that if you are discouraged today it would lift you up. Here’s a link to the song.
And here are the lyrics:

“What I’ve Overcome” by Fireflight

I’ve got this passion
It’s something I can’t describe
It’s so electric
It’s like I’ve just come alive
I feel this freedom
Now that my past is erased
I feel the healing
I’ve found the meaning of grace
(I’ve found grace)

IF ONLY YOU COULD SEE ME YESTERDAY
WHO I USED TO BE BEFORE THE CHANGE
YOU’D SEE A BROKEN HEART
YOU’D SEE THE BATTLE SCARS
IT’S FUNNY HOW WORDS CAN’T EXPLAIN
HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO FINALLY BREAK THE CHAINS
I’M NOT WHAT I HAVE DONE
I’M WHAT I’VE OVERCOME

I know I’ll stumble
I know I’ll still face defeat
These second chances will define me
So I’m moving forward
I’m standing on my two feet
I’ve got momentum
I’ve got someone saving me
(Got someone saving me)

CHORUS

I’ll make mistakes and I might fall
But I won’t break
I’ve got someone saving me

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3 responses to ““What I’ve Overcome”

  1. Wow, that was really powerful! I’ll be praying for you.

  2. Mom

    Wow, it took a lot of courage to write that. I love you Tim and I’m praying for you this summer and always.

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